Jim Bonney workshop #5

I wish Jim was coming back to work with us. We did the higher and lower self exercises today. It was really interesting to do it again at the end of five workshops because of how open everyone has become to one another. It was a lot easier for me to put my higher self, mask, and lower self into words today than it was a few weeks ago. We worked on scenes again. I was the pregnant character again, haha. And my boyfriends were Doug and Matt. They both played the same character. It was kind of weird playing opposite both of them at the same time. I think it would have been better if it had only been one of them but it was definitely an experience! And who knows if I'll ever play a character whose dating two versions of the same guy every again? The best part about today's workshop for me was getting to yell and bitch them out. It's always fun to yell at somebody in a scene, but getting to yell at two people at the same time felt even better. I felt like I was in power and it was refreshing.

Jim Bonney workshop #4

Today's workshop was a;woiejra;sdfjas;dfij ! The energy during all the warm up exercises was buzzing all over the place. It was vibrant and wonderful. It made me feel all filled up inside and really grounded into the ground. I felt like my center of gravity had been lowered into the deep pit of my stomach and even into my feet. I felt like I was apart of something and I was being supported by it. I felt silly and loose too. When we started doing scene work, the scripts were very open ended. There was a lot of room for interpretation. I was partnered with Kali. Our scenario: we used to be best friends, but then her boyfriend got me pregnant. I was coming to her to confess, but since I know that she's already suspicious of what's happened and because I feel like I can't trust her, I chicken out and didn't end up telling her my secret. We worked through the script with repetition, and sounds and got all wiled up. We then did the scene normally and then put down the scripts and improvised it. When we first started the imrpoved version of the scene, I felt frozen and trapped. I felt like I couldn't talk and my lips were disconnected from my body and I wasn't able to make them move anymore. Consequently, I didn't say much. I said little words like "yes" or "no." But about half-way into it something started to happen. Suddenly I hated Kali (not really Kali, her character) and just looking at her hurt me. I was scared of her. The entire room felt like it disappeared, but at the time I wasn't aware of it disappearing. It wasn't until after we were done that I noticed it had melted away. The only people that existed for me was Kali and I. I've used this before, but it felt like being sucked into a vacuum of some sorts. I started talking more than just one word answers and I started crying. It felt really good. I got out of my head which is why I wasn't aware of anything outside of just our little scene. Last year, I had to be put to sleep for a medical procedure. After our scene was over, I felt like I was waking up from that procedure. It felt like "what just happened?" Like the last 2 minutes that I had experienced wasn't really me but at the same time it totally was. It was like being empy and full at the same time. It's so hard to explain. But I know how it felt, and I want to do it again.

Big project - What we did April 27

Today we worked on our script. We're a little more than half-way done. Alex and I also worked on choreography for the last 10 minutes of class. I'm going to youtube some hip hop dances tonight.. stealing.. shhh =]

Started a new practice!!!

Hey everyone!! So I love this whole daily practice thing (something that you do artistically once a day, everyday) that I decided to start a new one in addition to my reading plays one. Actually, I was talking to Nicole about it during Lit and she said that she wanted to start a 365, which got me inspired to start one as well. I figured now is the perfect time to do it because of everything that's going on in my life and all the changes that will soon be happening. So here is my 365 blog... beckygrace365.blogspot.com FOLLOW ME!

for those of you who don't know: I have to take a picture of myself once a day every day for the next 365 days. Here we go!

Big project - Week of April 26

This week we are working on the script. We hope on finishing it this week.

Today we started it ninth period. We got the first two scenes written. The more we work on this the more I can see it happening in my head.

College!!

It's another one of those nights! I'm so excited I actually feel like I'm going to burst. I got a facebook message thread tonight from a all the musical theater majors class of 2014 that are going to Wagner next year about all hanging out in the city in May to meet each other. Everyone is so nice and friendly. I spent hours talking to different future class mates of mine. I've also gotten various wall posts and other messages from current freshman musical theater students. They keep saying how excited they are to meet all the incoming freshman! It's amazing how much support they show for us. It's a tiny school. About 1900 undergraduate. And the musical theater program has about 20 kids or less each year. So it's a really intimate group of people that I'm getting to know. And I cannot wait. I really think Wagner is going to be a great place for me to spend the next four years. AGHHHH!!!!! I can't wait for college

Rob workshop!! Day 1

Today we had to choose a photo partner. Mish and I were partners. We spent a lot of time outside taking pictures and thinking of our deep dark secrets that Rob had us write down on a piece of paper. I'm so used to taking silly pictures or smiling pictures. It was really fun to think of something that nobody knows and to be photographed while thinking about that. We also made the dance studio into a make shift photo studio and we got to take pictures of each other with Rob's camera as well. I think we got some really cool shots with that cause it's professional quality. Again, being vulnerable in front of the camera was kind of addicting. I want to do it again. Every time I have a "photo shoot" I'm reminded of how much I like taking pictures. This magazine is a really great idea. It's gutsy.